I kind of had this image,

Of what senior year summer would be like.
Late night adventures, laughing, catching up, with you.
I looked forward to finally getting to spend quality time with you, actually making it seem like "our title" wasn't just a "title". Every year, we would always lose connection during the school year, and then rekindle it during the summer.
However, I guess this year won't be like that.
It used to be normal, to not see you after a while and then spend a night having an adventure. Going somewhere for 3 days? Sure! Now however, I feel like it would be different.

I told myself I would forget about it, but after watching the last Harry Potter of all time, I watched as the trio grew up. My first time watching it, I was about 9, around the same age as them. I watched it with my best friend. Since then, we had a tradition of watching all the Harry Potter movies together. (though, maybe I am being delusional..I honestly thought we did.) This time, however, I watched the 3 children that I practically grew up watching, but when I turned to my side, it was not the person I grew up watching them with. It hurt to see that we were no longer close, like I was forgotten, like we had split up.

Watching them, and living this, has made me feel like things will probably never be how they were. We are off to college, to live our own lives. Even though I really do want to be a part of your life, I'm never really invited to be a part of yours, anymore.

I mean, I understand though. This is the last year that you will probably see your great group of friends as much as you do now. The last time. I get it, honestly. I mean, if I had a close group of friends like that, I would be just the same.

I know that, what seems like forever, our friendship has always kind of been "long distance." It's just, there were always the little things that made that distance seem so much smaller than it was. However... now it seems like those traditions, promises, conversations, have moved on as well.

This is nothing more than just my thoughts. It is not a hopeless cry to guilt the other person, nor is it an attempt to rekindle anything. I understand that, sometimes things grow apart to make room for better things. And if they have found those better things, what is wrong with that? There is no reason for me to feel bitterly towards it. I am just a bit sad is all. :) Honestly.

I still want to be a part of your life though, even if it's not such a big part. Therefore, I will continue to ask you out!

I can only hope that when I go to Berkeley, I will find a close group of friends I can call my own, as well, so that maybe, this small little pain in my chest will be eased. I will never forget, nor take back my appreciation for all those years spent, though.

HAHA......I just realized how dramatic I am getting.. I think it's because I just witnessed the final Harry Potter in history.....

WHICH WAS VERY GOOD, BTW. <3