Can you remember the first time you ever thought, "My god," every time you laid eyes on them? I do. I remember that physical attraction then turning into a crush, as every text message from him would make me smile. Even a simple, "hahaha" would make me feel as if I had made his day, just a tad bit happier. I miss it. I miss feeling like his favorite part of the day, I miss him being my favorite part of the day. I miss our random adventures, his effort to win me over, those butterflies.
"Look! I have a mustache :{D"
"Hahaha you just made my day already"
Filipino club car wash, how I remember so vividly.
Maybe it's because you've just been so cranky lately. But I just feel like, I don't make you as happy as I used to. You don't feel the need to go out of your way, because you are so comfortable. And hell, so I am. I am comfortable, to the point where the butterflies have disappeared. Sure, sometimes I feel lighter than air, but, I don't know. I wish it were more often.
I'm going to be starting school soon, away from this, and I'm just wondering how that'll be, for both of us. I know I'll miss it here, but at the same time.. I am looking forward to it.
I'm looking forward to having things to do, things to keep my mind off of you. I'm looking forward to having fun adventures, without holding you back. Looking forward to knowing you're getting your freedom from me, so when you want to see me, you generally want to see me.
....But then again, that probably won't happen until at least 2 months into the school year..... LOL.
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