Just wanted to Clarify,

My friend from UCB, who I was going to take shopping with me, she is from LA. She couldn't even home for Thanksgiving, so I wanted to save her, she was really down that everyone else was leaving.
However, in the end, she found something else to do, that wouldn't involve having Lam drive back and down to pick me up, then pick her up, 45 mins x 4.

Honestly, I didn't make plans with other people. I didn't make plans with my 'other' best friends. It was a spur of the moment thing. Your Thanksgiving log also threw me off, it made it seem you had had other things to do, because you assumed I had other things to do.. So ironically, I was waiting for YOU to get back to me about the shopping.. Which was my mistake, because I didn't realize I was keeping you waiting on an answer to go? I honestly thought I had already responded with a "Of course!" or something, because Black Friday + Sheri asking = Yes, is like an automatic response for me. But I guess I impulsively just assumed you were busy.

I was also hurt, to find out that you were shopping with your other best friends. It's actually pretty funny, and ironic what happened. I assumed since you didn't text me (other than 2 weeks ago) because you didn't actually check up with me, you were busy, you had other plans. Your recent blogs haven't at all really made me feel... included I guess. When you say your high school friends, who've been there and know HOW you are, I don't feel like I even belong a part of that. Because I'm hardly ever there anymore for your life changing moments. I always have to be caught up with your life. I don't know, I didn't want to double check with you about shopping because honestly, I already was expecting the, "I'm going with - - and -, but we can meet up for a bit!" I didn't want to be, "a bit"

.....My ear got itchy, and I forgot what else I was going to say.
The group of my 'other' best friends. You should know you're always welcomed as a part of it. You should know that! We all love you, and consider you a best friend. Your group however, If feel like a complete outsider, and now that you're with Alvin, I'd feel more of one going! So, I just didn't want to be a bother to you, to have to try and "squeeze" me in.

But really though, most of Black Friday Cindy and I were just talking, and wondering where you were. Or why we didn't go with us this year.
We actually felt pretty sad and forgotten..
....Life's funny how it works, isn't it? haha