I Totally Agree with the song.
Feeling it' right now.
Go hard, Today.
Can't worry bout' the past
Cos' that was, Yesterday.
Ima put it on the line cos its my time.
Gotta stay on my grind cos it's my time.
Its My Time.
Another Date with Henry, Cancelled.
Blah. Just once I'd like to look FORWARD to something, and have it actually come true.
What a waste of a 3 day weekend, much looked forward to. I haven't spent a weekend with him, not one day of a "non-school" day. This is what I expect when he moves next year guys. Xcept, I won't have him at school either. It'd just be hardly any connection to him at all.
I don't think anyone understands how bad that is to me. I've ALREADY went through a relationship like this, distant. It haunts me. But whatever, to you guys I'm just a clingy dramatic. I accept that statement full willingly.
I'm started to tire of getting my hopes broken guys. I actually feel that this year WILL be different. But for the better? Or the worse? You tell me.
Today,
My Parents were yelling and screaming at like 3am untill Idk when. I was dead tired in the morning, but woke up at 9:30 am and couldn't go back to sleep. So I showered and ect.
I planned to go out with Vjay, well on Friday we planned it. She didn't call or text. So I figured she'd probably be busy. So I didn't want to text her and ask, just to get turned down again.
Instead I just walked around, played with clay, ate some food. Got a call from Henry. Him telling me that he had to cancel tomarrow. Bkos he's going to SF with his cousins and blah. Another bad thing about today. I told him to call me back. I hung up and proceeded to wanting to break down. But just began to water my eyes a little. Talked to Max, his reply made me feel like a jerk, but he made sense. So I just kept it to myself, to save myself from further embarrassment. Lots of ppl ased what was wrong, but I didn't want to talk about my crappy mood. So I tried to change the subject. Aim is good, you cant really read depression on aim.
Mom walked in while I was tearing, so I pretended to have allergies and began my fake sneezing frenzy. She asked me if I wanted to go to Payless shoes. HELLS YESH. GET ME OUT OF HERE MOMMY! So I cheered up in the car with my mom. Looks like we both had a crappy night. although it was pretty much her fault for me not getting to sleep. -_- We were both mad at our men, well, I more depressed and hurt, rather then mad. but anyways. Called Sheri before I left, brought my shoes and hw for my mom to drop me off at Sheris after.
Went to Payless shoes. Lit up my face. =) I was like a kid in a candy store. Ran around to the 7 1/2 size aisle. Picked out some fake converse/vans. Liked them. Couldn't pick which to get. Mommy didn't like the red pretend converse. Blue pretend converse were too expensive. Black converse me and my mom forgot about, so we endde up leaving them on the ground as we went to pay for the purple fake vans.
I wonder if I should've gotten the blue ones? It was buy 1 get one half off.
Went to Sheris. Tried and attempted to do hw. Failed. Went to BK. Bought fries, Laughed at Sheri's brother attempt to squeeze into the car. Screamed at the broken glass on the back seat. Sat in the middle seat, the one without glass. Ate fries with Ranch+Ketchup. Watched scary "I survived" show. Watched Napoleon dynamite. Laughed.
Went to pick up brother, called my mom an Indian, had a discussion about how pretty indians were. My mom likes their eyes and nose. Mom blinded me with the sun. Laughed as I screamed in pain. Picked up brother. Drove home, henry called. Continued to talk to mom about indians. Mom sees black child + friend sitting in front of her house. They turn and look at her, she screams, "WUHT IS THAT?!" I burst out laughing. She notices its children and quickly says, "THEY STARTLED ME! THATS ALL! I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING!" I continued to Laugh. Told Henry, Henry laughed. Fun time.
Talked to Henry for a bit. Got sad that he's having such a fun time without me. Remained sad until now. He hung up on me when his cousins came over. Got even sadder.
Typed this blog.
Feeling it' right now.
Go hard, Today.
Can't worry bout' the past
Cos' that was, Yesterday.
Ima put it on the line cos its my time.
Gotta stay on my grind cos it's my time.
Its My Time.
Another Date with Henry, Cancelled.
Blah. Just once I'd like to look FORWARD to something, and have it actually come true.
What a waste of a 3 day weekend, much looked forward to. I haven't spent a weekend with him, not one day of a "non-school" day. This is what I expect when he moves next year guys. Xcept, I won't have him at school either. It'd just be hardly any connection to him at all.
I don't think anyone understands how bad that is to me. I've ALREADY went through a relationship like this, distant. It haunts me. But whatever, to you guys I'm just a clingy dramatic. I accept that statement full willingly.
I'm started to tire of getting my hopes broken guys. I actually feel that this year WILL be different. But for the better? Or the worse? You tell me.
Today,
My Parents were yelling and screaming at like 3am untill Idk when. I was dead tired in the morning, but woke up at 9:30 am and couldn't go back to sleep. So I showered and ect.
I planned to go out with Vjay, well on Friday we planned it. She didn't call or text. So I figured she'd probably be busy. So I didn't want to text her and ask, just to get turned down again.
Instead I just walked around, played with clay, ate some food. Got a call from Henry. Him telling me that he had to cancel tomarrow. Bkos he's going to SF with his cousins and blah. Another bad thing about today. I told him to call me back. I hung up and proceeded to wanting to break down. But just began to water my eyes a little. Talked to Max, his reply made me feel like a jerk, but he made sense. So I just kept it to myself, to save myself from further embarrassment. Lots of ppl ased what was wrong, but I didn't want to talk about my crappy mood. So I tried to change the subject. Aim is good, you cant really read depression on aim.
Mom walked in while I was tearing, so I pretended to have allergies and began my fake sneezing frenzy. She asked me if I wanted to go to Payless shoes. HELLS YESH. GET ME OUT OF HERE MOMMY! So I cheered up in the car with my mom. Looks like we both had a crappy night. although it was pretty much her fault for me not getting to sleep. -_- We were both mad at our men, well, I more depressed and hurt, rather then mad. but anyways. Called Sheri before I left, brought my shoes and hw for my mom to drop me off at Sheris after.
Went to Payless shoes. Lit up my face. =) I was like a kid in a candy store. Ran around to the 7 1/2 size aisle. Picked out some fake converse/vans. Liked them. Couldn't pick which to get. Mommy didn't like the red pretend converse. Blue pretend converse were too expensive. Black converse me and my mom forgot about, so we endde up leaving them on the ground as we went to pay for the purple fake vans.
I wonder if I should've gotten the blue ones? It was buy 1 get one half off.
Went to Sheris. Tried and attempted to do hw. Failed. Went to BK. Bought fries, Laughed at Sheri's brother attempt to squeeze into the car. Screamed at the broken glass on the back seat. Sat in the middle seat, the one without glass. Ate fries with Ranch+Ketchup. Watched scary "I survived" show. Watched Napoleon dynamite. Laughed.
Went to pick up brother, called my mom an Indian, had a discussion about how pretty indians were. My mom likes their eyes and nose. Mom blinded me with the sun. Laughed as I screamed in pain. Picked up brother. Drove home, henry called. Continued to talk to mom about indians. Mom sees black child + friend sitting in front of her house. They turn and look at her, she screams, "WUHT IS THAT?!" I burst out laughing. She notices its children and quickly says, "THEY STARTLED ME! THATS ALL! I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING!" I continued to Laugh. Told Henry, Henry laughed. Fun time.
Talked to Henry for a bit. Got sad that he's having such a fun time without me. Remained sad until now. He hung up on me when his cousins came over. Got even sadder.
Typed this blog.
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