AHHHH =)

I Look like, SuperWomen =) Saving a Fishy from EVILLLL. LOL, VJ=EVILL.

So after I woke up, I decided to blog. Pressed the on button on my laptop, and turned around for .5 seconds. When I turned back around, it was already loaded. "O__O Fwoah, that was fast! :D" Like usually, it'll take like 30-50 seconds. But I'm like, "Hey, thats cool :D" Then I sat down... -_____- The chair was much lower than it's usual height when I use it, and I fell on it and hurt my buttocks. -_-
"Yeah, okay. Someone was using it before I came home last night -_____________-" And gosh, didn't have the curtesy to TURN IT OFF EITHER.

ANYWAAAAAAYS,

I'm feeling SO MUCH BETTER from yesterday! Henry was right, I just needed my nappy =) Yesterday I felt SO HORRIBLE. Sometimes I feel like people think I exagerate about it. When I say that I feel wobbly or can't think straight, it's like ppl stare me down, my own friends even, like I'm lying. Well anyways, haha. Yesterday I was extremely tired. My throat killed me. And my legs and back were restless. It felt like I'd been walking for days, my whole body was weak, and my head was killing me. Henry kept telling me I should go home, but I had two tests that day, which I needed to do if I wanted a good grade. So I stressed on.

It was so cute in English and Spanish, "SHERRRRRY? WUHTS WRRRRONG?! D:" Hahahaaaaaa <+3 I loveeeee my english class =) Its like, the same-ish ppl from last year, xcept it seems I reach out to them more now. I LOVE SMILEY. I CAN NOT STRESS THAT ENOUGH GUYS. Like, I think she's the ONLY PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD, who's never ever everrrr ignored me! EVERRR. I Love that I have 2 classes with her =) Even though, I SHOULD HAVE MORE! Haha. I think, the english class that both me and Henry were put in, were better worked out like this. I can't help but feel that I'd probably be left out or something if I had Gatenby's 5th period.

Which brings me to my next topic. Ever have that feeling, where yu feel that your boyfriend picks people over you? I mean, it doesn't happen often...(? does it?! D:) but yunnoe, when I feel that way, it's usually something that obviously noticeable. Which kills me. I'm not really at all connected with my friends from before. It always feels like, They choose to talk to someone else, before talking or responding to me. Yunnoe?

So that's telling me. That something is like, wrong with me. Something is boring/annoying/unwanted about me. I think it MAY be, that 1) I find really stupid reasons to be sad all the time, and 2) I NEED MORE INDEPENDENCE.

I mean, you see a clingy person, attached to a crowd that doesn't even want them. And then yu see another person, who is running around the place, laughing with random people. Who are you gonna choose?

I've changed a lot from Freshman year. I miss my independence )= I WOULD NEVER, wish that I never met Henry though. I LOVE YOU HENRY! I'm happy about all the time we spent together =) Even the times when yu play yu gi oh while I watch lonlily against a wall :D..... So

Anyways, I need more independence. I mean, the classes that are like, the funnest are English and Spanish. The classes that Henry isn't in. But hell, Chem would probably be funner if yunnoe, the learning process wasn't a hard bitch D: ANYWAYS. So ENGLISH AND SPANISH! LOL, I need to be more like THAT SHERRY! Well, mostly English. Spanish is on rare occasions fun, bkos Hellebrandt keeps taking my points away for talking D:

I need to be Sherry again. But I have a thing. I'm ignored CONSTANTLY, and bkos of that, I HATE ignoring Henry. He's the person I care the most about(THAT I HANG OUT WITH AT SCHOOL! ..I<+3USheri :D) , and I know how sensitive he can be. Its like something I feel, that when I talk to someone, I have to check to make sure he's not sad or left out or anything. So I'm always trying to include him in everything. But bkos of that, I'm boring )= And I guess I get so sad that he leaves me out. Bkos I'm always trying to make sure he's happy all the time, but he doesn't seem to try unless he obviously sees that I'm sad/mad. Which by then is pointless for him to try to cheer me up.

Ex: He will be talking to someone, laughing and walking and just leaving me behind, to follow him like a puppy. I'll be like, "Okay sherry. You are now officially a bitch. -_-" and I won't be too happy. Once he stops bkos his friend leaves or something, he turns around like, OH, WUHTS WRONG? I know I should be happy he at least cares eventually. But I hate knowing the only time he will TRY is when he feels that he has too. Even yesterday, when I felt like shitty sickness, where was he? )=


*cough* uhm well. He was there afterschool. But, you get the point of my question. :D....

GOAL: Independence. Independence.
If Everyone thinks I'm way too dramatic and complain about Henry, I have to change that. Sherry's gonna be a person again. Not a puppy.