Feelings.

Hm, ha, harg.

So we were dancing today, i felt a little more included. Yipee :] But yea, yunnoe, i still feel like o_o yea.

So afterwards, me and henry went to subway to eat, he didn't want to go to the hip hop thing, and he didn't want me to either. But we went anyways, but it turns out. We came after it was over. it supposedly started at 3:10 o_o instead of 4:30. WTF. LOl

So we missed it, but we got the basics they learned that day from other ppl there. And it was fun and everything. But i felt out of place. Henry fit in fine, just fine. He had fun. And he ended up wanting to stay longer than I did. I wish i was more social.

So i think i wanna bring someone, bkos yunnoe, like. I'm most likely gna be alone on wednesday, bkos Henry kinda leaves me out too, SOMETIMES. just sometimes, like i'd hafta jump into things myself, but it doesn't feel right when I do it. Not anymore. We'll see wuht happens though. I just hope i have fun. I'm hoping to make some new friends but, are they all gna end up being the same thing?


So daily, i'm with Henry. And like, i'm usually with HIS friends. and he can NOT say they're my friends. It's just like they dnt want to make me feel bad. so i'm there friends too. but in reality it's like a pair of shoes. Ones prettier, but having the other shoe which is older, makes it your "favorite pair of shoes." so in reality. I'm alone.

And yunnoe. I miss when i had best friends. I miss when school lunch and brunchtime was fun. I miss a lot of things.

Damn, i really hate school. Like. Damn.


I need to reach out to more ppl. But i've lost the need bkos i feel like I have everything i need. I guess Henry isn't like that though, bkos he's still very open. Which i wish i still had.


I'm thinking some strange thoughts.