Califragisticly Not S-Kool.

LOL. Not Cool, during School! ;] These few days have been grrr-reaaat! Been loving it, loving connecting with the best of the rest. :]
So Friday I went shopping with Henry, it was bumpy at the beggining but morphed into ;DD
Then Saturday when MORE shopping with Annie, Awesome Clothes, Eastrigde = Love.
Then Sunday was SHERAI'S BDAY PARTY! VJAY WENT! OMG! Met new ppl, connected with NANCY! AND VJAY! ;] It was sooooo funnn. I Lavvvvhbed it!
Monday, Chill day at Target and home with Annie, we were tribal!
Tuesday [ today ], WENT SWIMMING WITH SMILEY! :D I Missed her!

Well, my blog today isn't really so gushy, bkos I for one, am tired. litterally. Too much chlorine. -_-

I can swim like a mermaid :D I can almost do the armstroke swim, but die after 30 seconds. I wonder if I'll be able to past the test..


PICHAS?!

Romeo, Save me.

Hm, So yesterday was fun. It wasn't 100% according to plan, but it's okay. I had a really romantic time with Henry. Haha. I Miss those dates we used to have. I was watching the old videos of Henry and stuff, wow. We've changed so much. We've gotten older, but I miss those times. When I watched those videos I just saw the old Henry, the first one I ever knew. The one that got me falling for him, I miss those little times we had, we're still pretty much the same together, it's just yu can tell me changed. Bkos we've been together for so long, it's just different then before. I Don't mind, I'm just saying I miss it you know?

I Miss him! haha Already, I can't wait for Sheri's birfday dinner, I'm excited :] I bet it'll be super fun!

I think I'm taking Pre-Cal, Math Analysis During the summer, College credit! My teacher reccommended it for me. But I'm hesistating, bkos he says it goes really fast. He's sure I could do it, but, it goes really fast. I'm not a very fast learner..

Time's going by fast, and I'm still having a hard time accepting that I'm going to be a junior. Feels like last week I was a FRESHMAN. My brother's last year of high school. Omg, he's going to graduate. Go off to college. It's gna be so different without him here. ....


More fighting, who would I bother when he goes away? ]: When Im scared, who can I run to and throw stuff at? ]:

Aw, I'm gna miss my big brother. ]:

I Don't like growing up. ]:

My side of the story?

So I guess this is my side of the story, since he wanted to hear it.
Though in general, the true fault was my own stupidity, i guess I'll still put this up here.

So My morning was very, eh. I'm impatient. Impatience + Rush + Sick + Tired = Oh god no. I'm not trynna put all the blame on excuses, I'm just warning that they did have a huge impact, but i'm not denying that it my was fault. Bkos it was. So Anyways, my brother was being way too slow again, and I hate it. So I was in a not so good mood. I couldn't really breathe, eh, being sick sucks. And I know that Henry would be okay with it, but I know that if I continued to come late, and looking like I did not care, it would eventually upset Henry. Well, thats not the point, why did I even bring that up? Anyways, Henry didn't care I was late, but I was very mad, and I couldn't get over it, bkos I hate repeatingly being late, I can never be on time. He's so okay with everything, and I'm so the opposite. Oh god. I hate it!!!!!!!!

I've be very irritable these past few days, being sick is really starting to get to me and affect like everything I do. AFFECT. Okay people? AFFECT. Once again, i know it was my stupidity. haha.

So anyways, test tomarro. Was okay, was a little worried but all i needed was to study. then English killed it. Lots of homework dealing with the things I hate most, "Lots of reading." "Finding things from the reading" So it was like 20 pages of reading, and like 7 little things for 10 other things as an assignment. Killed my mood. I dislike that kind of learning. I know it like helps and all with the vocabulary. But at the same time we have to cram something while doing something else. rawr.

So anyways, after 3rd. Walking on to P.E. Not very happy. Not very happy. Trying to calm down. So I was in the "I wna kill english teacher," stage, so the little small issues would greatly cause for me to explode. So Henry was dropping me off, and he started getting sad. So I thought i should do something to show him that I cheered up, so he would stop worrying about me. But he was about to leave, so the only thing in my head was "OMG SHERRY! HE'S SAD! FIN IT QUICK! DO SOMETHING RANDOM!" So the other day i started a water fight, so i thought, "Maybe I should start another one" So I drank some water and spat it out at him, I was just kidding, and I was smiling, like ":DDD" but, he took it the wrong way and got worse. and he walked away even sadder and disappointed. And I was thinking now "OH FKC SHERRY. YU SCREWED IT UP YOUR SO STUPID!" and I tried fixing it, but it got worse. So Then he left. I was not feeling good from the begginining, but i tried getting over it, to make things better, pretend i was fine, but then it got worse. So i got worse. I felt Horrible, sick. tired. irritated. and hating myself for being stupid. Not knowing wuht really went wrong, why everything i do or try never works out. Everything. So I was very frustrated. and I really really. Needed a break. But when I tried getting one. It just got worse. so, blah.


So blah. blah blah. thats my story. Man I'm still so irritated from hw. But i dnt want to do it bkos I know i'm really not gna remember it. It doesn't interest me. I need a break. TGIF TOMARRO!!!!!!!

Time to grow up ?

Well, Henry told me something today. Which is to stay in private. In case people actually read this, and it hit me that things are going so fast, and not going to slow down.

Things are going to change, things are going to keep drifting away, making room for more things. Is it time for me to grow up? Let go of some things keeping me in this childhood state. I like it here, I've adapted to it here.

But am I to let it go?.. Prepare for the future, for college, after college. Am I supposed to let everything go? Something is not planned, it's not supposed to go how you plan, it's what ever you shape and make it to be.

I don't want to let him go. I don't want to get over him. I Want to be together.. I want to spend my life with him. Sure I might bee "too young" to say this, but I really do. I want to at least be able to give it a chance.

I need to break free of this isolated island I'm in, I need to grow up but, it's just so hard.


I want to break away with you.

I Wna Go To Hip Hop 360.

So, I was at hip hop 360, waiting for my mom, for about like 5 mins. And Man, I wish I coulda stayed, but oh well. I need to finish my english and chemistry projects. So Anyways, I was thinking to myself, that usually, Moms are supposed to cook the food, buy the stuff, and dads supposed brings home the money to provide for that stuff....
My Mom Does Both. She works FOR the money, AND buys the stuff, while my dad lays at home sleeping, and eating most of the food she gets. She's like a single mom, for 3 kids. and One of those kids, is a grown man, who eats twice as much, 4 times a day. He's bored at home, he has nothing to do, so he eats all the food, uses most of the electricity and water. Man. I hate it. I get so mad thinking about it. my mom doens't deserve that bullsht. She works her ass off like everyday, and wuht does he do? Tell her to buy him more Smokes and Beer.

I Want to hurt someone.

I've had such a horrible, up and down day. I can't think if's just after period moodswings, or i'm just extremely tired, or it really just sucked that much. Maybe, it was all 3.

I'm not gna blarg about it, bkos it was really just all my fault. Lol. I'm honestly really retarded, and i dnt get why I can't change that? I Think most of the BS at school is all caused by me. But We'll see.

Gr, I'm sorry Hunney Bunney. I need to think about wuht really happened.

Procrastinating homework.

So guys, I'm the Dramatic one, Yipee. -_- Lol.

Well, I most likely am. I'm feeling kinda chill, yet wanting a chase, some excitement today. I wna go to the mall and meet some new people, but damn. I'm too lazy. I'm just gna finish up hw. If I didn't have hw. I think I'd be chilling over and gmall right now.


So, this is mainly for my griinnd. I'm gna break out. Break out of this shell. Again, i gta find some people to help me and everything, but yunnoe wuht. I gta find myself again. I gta find who I was, beore all the bullsht brought me down. I miss those times, but really, I miss who I used to be. Well, SOME of me. Not the other side that I would gladly stab..

So I'm gna go bkc to homework, but yunnoe. I just felt like blogging,

I Miss those days going crazy with my grind. I miss those days bumping up the music, rolling over my living room. I Miss those calm days at the beach, the pool. I Miss spending the day with my boyfriend, one on one. I Miss My Best friend Sheri. Period. I Miss knowing that She misses me too. I Miss Being Carefree. I Miss the Old Best Friend I took advantage of, and now he's gone, forever. I Miss believing in fairytales, miracles, wishing. I Miss My Family.

I Miss A Lot Of Things.

"Feels like I'm going backwards, first I started, then I found it, then I'm caught up,"

Feelings.

Hm, ha, harg.

So we were dancing today, i felt a little more included. Yipee :] But yea, yunnoe, i still feel like o_o yea.

So afterwards, me and henry went to subway to eat, he didn't want to go to the hip hop thing, and he didn't want me to either. But we went anyways, but it turns out. We came after it was over. it supposedly started at 3:10 o_o instead of 4:30. WTF. LOl

So we missed it, but we got the basics they learned that day from other ppl there. And it was fun and everything. But i felt out of place. Henry fit in fine, just fine. He had fun. And he ended up wanting to stay longer than I did. I wish i was more social.

So i think i wanna bring someone, bkos yunnoe, like. I'm most likely gna be alone on wednesday, bkos Henry kinda leaves me out too, SOMETIMES. just sometimes, like i'd hafta jump into things myself, but it doesn't feel right when I do it. Not anymore. We'll see wuht happens though. I just hope i have fun. I'm hoping to make some new friends but, are they all gna end up being the same thing?


So daily, i'm with Henry. And like, i'm usually with HIS friends. and he can NOT say they're my friends. It's just like they dnt want to make me feel bad. so i'm there friends too. but in reality it's like a pair of shoes. Ones prettier, but having the other shoe which is older, makes it your "favorite pair of shoes." so in reality. I'm alone.

And yunnoe. I miss when i had best friends. I miss when school lunch and brunchtime was fun. I miss a lot of things.

Damn, i really hate school. Like. Damn.


I need to reach out to more ppl. But i've lost the need bkos i feel like I have everything i need. I guess Henry isn't like that though, bkos he's still very open. Which i wish i still had.


I'm thinking some strange thoughts.

Love Story Lyrics.

Omg, im so hooked onto this cute little country song. It makes me just want to run to Henry and kiss him! :] It gets me in the mood like "OMG! THAT IS SO CUTE!" it just makes me want my happy ending already! :] haha


EDITED SOME PARTS ;D Bold and Strikeout.
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We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
OnIn a balconyschool quad in summer air
See the sunlights
See the partylines, the ball gownsYour familiar face
I see you make yourmy way through the crowd
And say hellostop and stare, little did I know

That you weren't Romeomy ex, but soon you were throwing pebbles had become my Romeo
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the gardenlinda vista to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this townhouse for a little while

'Cause you were my Romeo, I was a scarlet letter a lucky asian
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficultwonderful, but they don't think it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh
-------This is where i stopped editing, bkos, ill wait for my happy ending :]-------
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you