Family Secrets.

Well, what a Night I had. This is something, that I'm not gonna tell people. Bkos I don't wanna bring it up, but I'm going to put it here, bkos deep down, I know that I want someone to know and make me feel a little better.. Some of you may end up finding out before reading this though, bkos I'm pretty down right now, and its pretty obvious to tell that there's something wrong with me.

Christmas Day, it was fun. But 2am, the day after Christmas, my parents went back to their arguing. Which stopped for about 3 months. They started, the day after fkcing Christmas. Wuht were they just being good to get presents and then just blow it all off? Now my parents. When they fight, it's never just "about them" My mom makes sure she screams it loud enough so any possible person could hear..

I let that one go, I listened to music, I drowned it out, I fell asleep with the new sleep thing I got.
This morning, the 27th, right when my mom came home from work, she started yelling at him already. That was my cue, i turned on my music, and tried to sleep. But no, that didn't work out, my mom screamed, slammed doors, dad screamed back with his thundering voice. I didn't have to hear them to feel the vibrations, music wasn't helping. So I layed on my bed, trynna calm myself.. I thought about Henry, he calmed me down, but the thought of his family made me just want to cry. which er, i did. His family just seems so Happy. Compared to mine. He loves his family so much, they accually do things together, they go places, they spend time together. Now look at my family. I've been isolated from them, BY CHOICE, way farther then I can even remember. And the only time I've been able to get closer, is when they hate each other..

I just wish, I could have a family like Henry's too. But that's not all that happened.

About 3 something. My mom runs into my room, turns on the lights, and screams at me. Hits me to wake up. "YOU'RE JUST GOING TO LAY THERE WHEN THAT MONSTER HIT ME?!?! CALL THE POLICE SHERRY. CALL THEM!" And she screams and screams. She shows me her arm. I grab the phone, and start dialing 9-1-1. My dad is coming up stairs, stomping, my mom notices I'm calling and hangs up. WTF. My dad comes in saying "GO AHEAD AND CALL THEM. YOU STUPID MVDLKMCLS." My mom and my dad are both yelling at me to call. When my mom just hung up on them. wtf. They called back. and they stared at me. My moms screaming "TELL THEM." and my dad just stairs..

Me: ....Can I get help for domestic violence..?
Police Woman: Okay, whats the adress? What's your name?
Me: *tells her address* I'm Sherry.
Police Woman: So what happened..?
Dad: What are you saying Sherry?!
Mom: SHERRY *shakes her head, telling me "nevermind."
Me: (So I'm about to break out into tears, bkos im so confused. and have no idea what to do) Nevermind... it was a false alarm, I think i'll be fine.
Police Woman: Wait, did he hit you? Did someone hit you?
Me: No... I'm fine. Thank you anyways.
Police Woman: If this is a call for DV, you have to tell me Sherry.
Me: Oh, its fine though.. Thank you.
Police Woman: Okay...
*Hangs up*

My mom looks at me like I'm crazy. And I'm the stupidest thing in the world. 5 Minutes later, the police came.

Knocked on my door. And you know what the only thing I was thinking when they came over? "Damn, this is cool." Bkos, they talked to me CALMLY. Something I haven't heard all night. They interogated me, asked what happened, if I was hurt, ect. ect. I feel safe around them.

They were gossiping as they were waiting, it was fun to listen to actually. So in the end. My parents got a warning, that if they recieved a call again. one of them was going to jail. So before they left, one of them looked me in the eyes, and said "Have you been crying?" I nodded. And this was very unexpecting. He shook my hand. and said "It's going to be okay," and they left.



Henry's calling me. I'm gonna be so glad to hear his voice... but I'm just really....numb.. I'll put more about what happened some other time. Maybe after someone reads this I can tell you myself.