Son of a.

Well, i got back the vietnamese transfer paper. I got denied. I don't understand why. Well I don't excatly know wuht to do anymore, i mean i think i'm going to talk to the counselor to try changing it. Buht yu see, me being my super stitious self said "I'm going to apply, and wuht ever the counselor says i'll stick with. I'll let fate decide for me" And they DENIED me. I don't get it. Wuht did i do wrong? I'm trynna take it two ways; maybe it'll be better for us if we do just leave it as it is. I mean, everything just seems like they've been trying to keep us apart in school, yet when we're together outside its like we're the only two ppl on earth. Or maybe I should once and for all let go of my superstitions bkos Henry is way more important than wuht my stupid mind believes in.


I don't know. Bkos i've been okay, i mish him SO much in school, buht those times that i get to see him just brings a smile to me everytime. Those 2 hours, 1 hour, any time longer than 30 mins that i get to spend with him just makes all the bullsht seem worth it.

Buht i don't know, yunnoe? I mean, its the first week of school, wuht if we just get so used to us being apart? I don't want that to happen. it feels like my heart is cracking everytime i think about it. I know its dramatic buht I honestly, feel that way. Everytime i think about how much i miss him my heart just cracks another bit inside.

Just wuht to do you want from me?
Wuht are you trying to tell me?
Do you want to make me miserable
Or are you trying to save me?
Just why, i don't understand why,
why would you want to take away my sunshine,
Seperate us from eachother,
Break and crush all my hopes of being with him.
All my attempts, my effort,
Wuht do you want from me?
Do you want me to try harder,
Or do you want me to just quit?
Are you trying to tell me its better this way,
It'll work out in the end.
Or do you want me to just disobey you,
Bkos this is far more important then wuht yu say,
I'm just so confused,
I don't know wuht to do,
Baby my heart is breaking,
Wuht do you want from me?
Why? Why? I don't understand why,
You're turning all my sunshine into rain.


<3Sherry.