It's been a while.
Maybe I've been busy. Or, maybe I haven't had to write something in a while.
Tonight is one of those nights I feel like I'm worthless. I feel unattractive, unintelligent, incompetent, and selfish. I feel helpless.
I feel like I don't deserve you. You can do so much better than me. My confidence is shot right now. And I'm not even sure why. I have no motivation and I just want to curl into a ball and cry. And I wish you were here to comfort me, but I wouldn't even know what to say.
Maybe it's because I know my mom is unhappy, and there is nothing I can do. Spending her money and time offering to buy me a new car, a new laptop. I wish I could just do it myself. I'm so worthless. I just want to give her everything I have. She deserves so much better than this crumbling family. Deserves better than me. I can't do anything. I'm so complicated. I have so many recurring health problems. And, to top it all off. I just cried and washed away my Night Cream :( wah..
Good night world.
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