There is more people than just me who think that you can be just a smidge negative. That is honesty. But granted, that could have just been the case for you previously. Perhaps you have changed in a way to enjoy your life more so than before, and if that is the case, than I am of course more than happy for you! I'm not telling you to "loosen up and enjoy life" as a way to break down your confidence or anything. On the contrary, I want you to embrace your confidence and utilize all opportunities you possibly can in order to really experience life in the best possible way.
The only reason why I point these things out is because I only have your blog, (which I stalk frequently) and our experiences to base of my perception of you. This is the only contact I have with you in my busy lifestyle. And in both of this things, you have only been sharing negative thoughts, and thus I am perceiving you as a negative person. Granted again, this is me assuming things without knowing the whole story, I apologize if this offends you. But that it the only reason that I feel the need to tell you to enjoy life, because what I'm getting from you doesn't tell me that you already are. You, yourself, tell me that your life is boring at times, that you hate it there, that you can't wait until you are out of there. I'm only telling you these things as a friend, to support you and hopefully ease this mentality of stress that I have so frequently seen. It is not at all a way to undermine your life or make you feel belligerent in anyway towards me.I can't seem to understand exactly what you're going through, because unlike your parents my mother is more like an older sister to me. I can never understand normal family dynamics because mine are just completely inconsistent. I am sorry if what I said came out wrong, but from the bottom of my heart all my advice towards is just the best I can offer to try and help you lighten up your life. I can't physically be there and rescue you from boredom, nor can I tell you to disobey your parents like I would to mine because we have completely different families. And therefore, that is my only advice that I am constantly giving, "look on the bright side, make the most of what you have, don't worry so much and enjoy your life."
Our recent experiences have been unpleasant, I suppose. But I still cherish them. It's very hard for me to see what you want really, because there are only so many things I can control. I thought we were doing fine on the friendship basis until your blog literally came out of nowhere and made me wonder what happened..
Yes, this argument is over, and it was quite ridiculous on both our parts.
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