Truth is,

There is more people than just me who think that you can be just a smidge negative. That is honesty. But granted, that could have just been the case for you previously. Perhaps you have changed in a way to enjoy your life more so than before, and if that is the case, than I am of course more than happy for you! I'm not telling you to "loosen up and enjoy life" as a way to break down your confidence or anything. On the contrary, I want you to embrace your confidence and utilize all opportunities you possibly can in order to really experience life in the best possible way.
The only reason why I point these things out is because I only have your blog, (which I stalk frequently) and our experiences to base of my perception of you. This is the only contact I have with you in my busy lifestyle. And in both of this things, you have only been sharing negative thoughts, and thus I am perceiving you as a negative person. Granted again, this is me assuming things without knowing the whole story, I apologize if this offends you. But that it the only reason that I feel the need to tell you to enjoy life, because what I'm getting from you doesn't tell me that you already are. You, yourself, tell me that your life is boring at times, that you hate it there, that you can't wait until you are out of there. I'm only telling you these things as a friend, to support you and hopefully ease this mentality of stress that I have so frequently seen. It is not at all a way to undermine your life or make you feel belligerent in anyway towards me.I can't seem to understand exactly what you're going through, because unlike your parents my mother is more like an older sister to me. I can never understand normal family dynamics because mine are just completely inconsistent. I am sorry if what I said came out wrong, but from the bottom of my heart all my advice towards is just the best I can offer to try and help you lighten up your life. I can't physically be there and rescue you from boredom, nor can I tell you to disobey your parents like I would to mine because we have completely different families. And therefore, that is my only advice that I am constantly giving, "look on the bright side, make the most of what you have, don't worry so much and enjoy your life."


Our recent experiences have been unpleasant, I suppose. But I still cherish them. It's very hard for me to see what you want really, because there are only so many things I can control. I thought we were doing fine on the friendship basis until your blog literally came out of nowhere and made me wonder what happened..

Yes, this argument is over, and it was quite ridiculous on both our parts.

Already knew,

Already knew that you would reverberate anything I said into some negative way. I tried to make it sound as best as I could, and yet you still want to turn it around. You are so silly. Lol. And in all honesty, if I COULDN'T SEE YOUR HAIRS, I doubt anyone could have. lol

If this does not sound negative to you, than I don't know what is:
"Everyone in this world uses you for one or another thing but RARELY do they ever show you appreciation for being a friend or for just being there for them."

Its true, I have adapted to Berkeley and the spontaneous-ness. In fact, I hardly ever have a "Lets go eat this day! *weeks from now*"
It's more like "Hey. I'm hungry. Chipotle?" And where as some people don't like that, I find no issue with it.
To me it's not a question of how much one cares for another, because I have also adapted to being able to eat alone, study alone, (I'm at a library right now chilling on my own actually) and yet I choose to reach out to you because I want to.

I don't know where I'm going to go with this, because I'd rather not have an argument about it. I hate arguing. I only addressed this in the first place because your entire last blog was completely an attack on my character. You said things as if implying that I was a certain way that I am not. That's all.

Because really, if that's what you really think about me, then idk how our friendship stands. It's up to you. Because I know a lot of that was false accusations.

Girrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl, Ima be straight up with you.

You worry too much. You think too much about what other people think.

You spent minutes if not hours trying to find a way to shave barely visible hairs on your legs. -___-
This negative energy you have, you are overemphasizing things you reaaaally don't have to. I don't possibly understand how you can think that I judge you when we are in public. I really don't ever do so. I admit, I can get pretty angry when there is unnecessary trouble. It annoys me, you know this about me already from our years together.

But don't ever think that I judge you, look down on you, etc. etc. Do you not remember all of Senior year? GIRL, I LOOKED TORN UP EVERY DAY AT JL. I did not try at ALL to look nice. It was legit "Fuckkkk calculus... *brush teeth* go to school." I STILL have my days like that. My pictures are very misleading, hohoho. It makes me look beautiful when in reality I am usually wearing sweatpants.

I always want to take pictures with you, somehow... we just never end up taking them -__-. Lol. The reason I dress nice is FOR PICTURES and FOR YOU! Otherwise, I would be the usual "can I just sleep" Sherry that I will never grow out of. There's a reason I try to look nice for you, because I want to take pictures and I want to remember these moments we had together.

You have these really negative impressions of me, because you are over thinking every situation. In all honesty, no one is perfect. Hell, I could name a few things about you -lols- but I won't. Because I know that is just how you are with your crazy over reacting self just like how you know that's just how I am with my cranky bitchy self.

I'm enjoying my life right now, straight up. it's pretty fantastic.
But I also have those days I want to die, I want to crawl into a hole because of my workload, I am stressed out to the point where I could drink myself to sleep...
But you know why I don't? Because I think positively. Because I appreciate everyone in my life and you people are the ones that keep me going. Including you. When I'm home, I hit you up. Real talk if I didn't want to hit you up I wouldn't. There'd be no point in that. o______o. So just understand that you are important to me, and I still consider you one of my best friends. <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp">
Berkeley won't ever replace the lovers I have in San Jose. San Jose or die. <3 br="br">Now stop being so negative and cheer up! No need to be bitter, just.... (fuck I tried to make this rhyme and this is obviously not going to work out) ..uh switter..... which means sweet-and not-bitter.... lols............

Anyways, yes. I tell you think SO many times already, BUT YOU JUST NEED TO CHILL AND ENJOY YOUR LIFE! LOL <3 much.="much." nbsp="nbsp" p="p" so="so" without="without" worrying="worrying">