Dear You,

I have not forgotten about you.
Really, I haven't. I check your blog every chance I get, -if not on a daily basis. I've been really busy lately, school, work, other obligations, just trying to enjoy college.
Honestly, it's not that I'm replacing you, or forgetting you. I have such faith in us, and I know we'll remain friends for as long as possible.
I'm just trying to make the most out of college, to be independent, to explore the world, every thing. I know that you've been trying to hang out, and trust me I do really want us to hang out! It's just that, 1. I'm freaking terrified of coming to visit you because lets face it, I'd get lost going to my own house from the freeway, 2. I've had absolutely no time except for every 2-3 weeks where I go home just to relax.
I really do love SF though, I want to visit! That'd be so much fun. :>
Although these new girls I'm meeting, I love with all my heart already, they will never replace you.
I have a confession to make: This past year, with everything that has happened between us. I felt a lot of different emotions.. It really did hurt me what happened. I felt distanced from you, forgotten by you, like a bother. We stopped having those crazy memories together. It seemed like every time we hung out was just to calm down, and relax. And I loved the times we hung out! But really, it hurt me that when we hung out, you had all these crazy stories with your other friends, the same friends that I felt I was losing you to; I missed being the one you had crazy memories with.
Ever since then, I didn't know what to do. I was just, so numb, and felt like my best friend was doing so much better with out me, to a point where I stopped trying to hang out with you because you were doing better on your own.
But that never changed the love I have for you.
Even though, even now, I feel like once winter, or summer hits, you'll be well on your way with your close group you formed, you'll always have an important place in my heart.
These girls are the ones I'm just enjoying my time with, experimenting stupid things. But, at the same time, I could never picture them on the same level we are. I don't think I'll be as close to them as I am with you.
And I'll be completely honest; I feel so happy that you're putting in such an effort. I actually feel like such a priority, like I'm wanted in your life. And from the bottom of my heart, in the best, non-offensive way possible, I really haven't felt like this from you in a while. And I'm not saying that to make you feel bad, I SWEAR, it's NOT an attack!!!!!!!!! I'm just, being honest, really really honest. I'm kind of dreading winter break, because I feel like once that hits you'll be busy with your other life again.

But, anyways,
You should never feel like I'm forgetting you.
It'll always be you and I.

....I feel like I just wanted to spill my guts out so this post really didn't make much sense.... haha.
But.. I hope you understood my nearly invisible point.