To a very special person.

I knew you were having a rough time that night, it was obvious, and I was stupid for not asking if you were alright, and I really should have asked if you were already.
(I have so much to say in different varying topics that I can not even put it together right now.)

He is NOT a bigger priority then you. I promise you that. I absolutely do.
If he made plans with me, (unless they were like, super important or something) vs plans you made w/ me, I WOULD go to you. I SWEAR BY IT.
I Love You, and lately, I've been so bad at showing it.
I really don't know how to explain this.. because honestly it's going to make me sound like an idiot either way I try, but here it goes.
I am too nice to him.
I wanted both of you guys to be there, but honestly I really wished that you guys got to talking more.. and for him, I KNEW that he would feel uncomfortable around all those people, that he would not even make an effort to really talk to them. However, I was really surprised that you also felt that way. I've never seen you so quiet, I had no idea what to do. It was so strange not seeing jump from place to place talking to people like you usually would. I for one thing did NOT call you clingy, because I KNOW you are absolutely the complete opposite of that! And was the main reason I was so surprised.
I did take you for granted that night, I am so sorry. I really am. I really wanted to have a great time with the both of you.
And honestly, from the bottom of my heart, halfway through the waiting, around the time he kept asking for the stupid elevator that I just wanted to get over so he'd stop asking. I thought to myself, "It might have been better to bring my mother and thing(you)."
It might sound like I am trying to butter this up, that I am lying, that I am trying to make false hope or whatever, but I am NOT.
I know that he does that.
I told him "STOP. You are making her feel blah blah"
He does not take me seriously.
I was too weak to actually put my foot down and explain to him not to.
I am so sorry that I acted so stupidly.

I am terribly, terribly, sorry.
*sigh*