Faith

It's funny how faith works. When you have a great deal of faith for someone, you automatically lose sense of the possible negative outcome that could happen. And even though, those negative outcomes can, and have happened so many times in the past, that faith makes you forget about all those times. And sure enough, it happens, in the absolutely wrong time. When you're happy to finally see him after a few days, when you're about to leave for a few days, even when they day should be loving, and calm, it is not. You guys break out into an argument. A stupid one, at that, and it hurts so much more, because of what you were expecting.
I guess that is the difference between wishing for something with faith, and wishing for something you've given up in. Like my family for example, I've given up that we will ever be a happy family, so when I hope for a happy day, and it doesn't work, it's easily acceptable. I've seen it coming, it happened, I leave. However, for things you have faith in, want to desperately believe in, it hurts more, and you just can't seem to let it go. This happens until finally, what you had faith in, you lose. And then you will be on to phase 2, where you just accept and move on.

I don't know what I have to do to be happy in this relationship. I'm happy a majority of the time. But everytime we have a small argument, it turns into a huge one. Everytime, that hurts far more then any large argument my past relationships have had.
And then, I forget about what we argued about, unless they actually meant a great deal to me, (only 1 in counting so far.)