And it has just hit me, that I am an Alumni.
I am no longer a James Lick High School Student, but instead -a graduate.
And it filled me with such a bittersweet feelings.
The times of loneliness, wanting nothing more but another spring break, another day off, another escape from school.
But really, these years were the best years of my life, and senior year, the best year of my life.
I really appreciate the fact that I went to James Lick High School.
Perhaps not the most "out there" or "fun" school, but nonetheless this year was still fun and grand to me.
I can not fathom, or better stated, accept the fact that I will not be coming back.
I can not believe that in a few months, I will be moving out, into a new world.
It pains me, yet excites me.
I look at pictures from my graduation, and what hurts me the most is the pictures of my mother and I.
I love my mother so much. I don't want to leave her behind.
I don't want to leave her in the wrecked house, where she will yell, and scream, and I won't be there to protect her,or talk to her, or cheer her up anymore.
I am so sad at the fact that I have been so negligent to my dear mother lately, I miss being the girl that would wake up 7am to clean the entire house, leave a card saying "Good Morning! I Love You Mom!" and some type of failed cooking on her desk.
I Miss That. I Miss Her.
I'm just not ready to let her go.
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