Oh jeesus. It is bad.
It's obvious, I like him. Even I'm lying to myself and I know that.
I see anything saying, "You like him a lot, don't you?"
Immediately.
I turn away, I think of something else, I say, 'No.... no way... I don't like him that much. I mean come on.....'
I'm so terrified of turning into a meanie weenie, again.
I'm so terrified of relationships all together.
I'm terrified of being clingy, of missing the person.
So, what do I do?
When I miss you, I tell myself I don't.
When I miss you, I distract myself from thinking of you.
But it's obvious. I'm lying. I'm a liar.
I can't even type here that I =x You.
.. It's silly, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
Just give me time, because you are something special, extraordinary.
I'm just a little scared to like you right now, is all..
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