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I Need an Easy Way To Forget, Fast.

Steps I go through in order to forget something.


1)Get Completely Fed Up About it, Angry. Wants to smash something.
2)Realizing how much it actually means to me, and ending up watering because of what happened.
3)Hurt, feels unimportant bkos of what happened, wants to run away.
4)Mad again, thinking about it, "Little Sherry" kicks in.
5)Calms down. Tries REALLY HARD to be calm about it.
6)Holds in yearning to throw and yell and bitch.
7)Thinks about things, old memories.
8)Gets sad all over again.
9)Stays sad.
10)Eventually gets over it somehow.

Hunney Bun, I know I disappointed you today.
I was stupid. and you don't need take any responsibility for it, I was just plain stupid and lost control. Just please understand, I just really wanted to be with you today. Bkos of everything that happened, a voice inside kept telling me, "Look at him, he doesn't want to be with you. Just look at him have a great time with them, when with yu he's never that happy."
That voice inside tricked me. That voice was my stupid doubt.
I'm sorry Hun<+3 I'm really sorry. I Love You, and I really want to be with you.