Past 2 days with best Friend was loads of fun =) I love her dogs! All 3 of them =) They laaaahv me, so cute! I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR HUNBUN'S VOICE AGAIN, "It's only been 2 days Sherry, chill!" .. 2 WHOLE DAYS MAN, I reaaaaaally missed him =) You know you really love someone, when you have a fun time, yet you miss them, and wish you could share the joy with them. I stole that from Diana. =) I reaaaaaaally reaaaaaally missed him though! Call me HUNBUN, I miss you and I Love You So Much =)
Don't get me wrong, Of course I miss Henry, but I had a GREAAT time with Sheri! Sheri, don't think I didn't =) It was really fun, I'm sooo happy we got to spend quality best friend time! HEHE!
I have so much I want to blog about, but I can't. So many pictures that I can't show. bkos =x. But I have pretty new =x! Is that a secret? ;)
P.S.; Dear Sheri, I watched yu as you rolled over into your slumber ;DD I wiped your drool, and then stared at you as yu slept peacefully.
ROFL, man I am so creepy. =) And that's why she loves me!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
My HunBun Left For Las VegasThis Morning.5:55AM.
I Miss You Hun. I've been missing you, and I don't just mean now. I know I've been up the wall lately, being annoying, agitated, ect.
Every week, I wake up thinking "Okay, This week, for sure." And by the end of the week, on Friday, I'm thinking, "..Maybe Next week. Next week probably.." I'm sorry I've been driving you crazy. I want to spend all the time I can with you, talk to you all the time I can, is all. I get disappointed when I can't, and then I get stupid and cause problems. I just miss you. I Just REALLY miss you. Last year, it seemed like we always had each other. Now I'm adapting to not seeing you anyday but on a schoolday+Friday. ( I have no idea what a school day is.. Never have. O.o) Just to let you know, Microsoft word capitalized the O.o. Watch it'll do it again. O.o HAHAHA. Oh sorry, irrelevant. O.o LOLOL! Oh okay, I'll stop now :D "I ain't no vision, I'm the girl who Loves, You. Inside and out, Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out I love no other way What are we gonna do if we lose that fire"
Housing gave us a list of available houses for rent! If you would like me to live near you, and become your bestttt friend,
Please Leave Me Your; 1) Full house address. =) Zip Code Very Importante! 2) Names of streets nearby. Surrounding streets, whatever! 3) Details of your neighborhood. =) Is it a good place? Is it loud at night? Can I walk around in shorts or something without getting jumped? Is there somewhere I can run away, and buy food nearby? IS THERE A JACKINTHECRACK/TARGET/SAVEMART ECT.?! 4) Whether or not the houses are nice. Pretty? :D 2 stories hopefully? Looks big/good amount of space? :DD!
-I CAN'T FIND ANYTHING TO GET FOR ANNIE! -_- I want to get her something nice, but I can't think of ANYTHING. I feel so unoriginal right now. -This song, STILL. LOL! just the song, not his dance moves. HAHA.
- Whether I'm going to go shopping with my mom later on, How much she streched out teh arms of my new shirt -_________- Well, "her" new shirt. - I'm such a shoppahaulic. And I want those grey boots. =) - Whether or not i'm going to pass ANY of my AP tests. Shhhht. AP is so hard, makes me want to pursue a less advanced career. Maybe UC Berkeley is really just too outta my league. - Should I continue on blogspot? I LOVE blogspot! But everyone seems to think it'd be so much easier if I used my tumblr instead, bkos every has tumblr now adays, and it'd be easier to follow ppl. -What would it be like if I went to another school next year? ... -Why have I been sneezing 40 times in a row?
Planting Daffadills was fun today =) got in some more community service ;D I love community servicing and having a great time!
I'd like to say, That this is VanessaJoie Castillo. Mi Novia, =). And I can honestly say that I don't recall anything evil/bad, or ANYTHING that she has ever done to ANYONE. She is Filipino Club President, and deserves to remain in that position! She also hosts kick ass birthday parties ;D Sweetest girl in the world, and said meanies out there should be nicer to her, or leave her alone until you can choose to do so. =)
Other than that, I Love Hip Hop. Real Hip hop. The legacy, none of that fake sht. I like Contemporary dancing, emotional dancing. Rythm. I like storyline, and meaning. I like working out in a tank top and boxers. I like meeting new people, having a good time, and making the world a better place. I like singing in the shower. And I like people, who like to hang out with me, for me. Not my boyfriend.
1)Get Completely Fed Up About it, Angry. Wants to smash something. 2)Realizing how much it actually means to me, and ending up watering because of what happened. 3)Hurt, feels unimportant bkos of what happened, wants to run away. 4)Mad again, thinking about it, "Little Sherry" kicks in. 5)Calms down. Tries REALLY HARD to be calm about it. 6)Holds in yearning to throw and yell and bitch. 7)Thinks about things, old memories. 8)Gets sad all over again. 9)Stays sad. 10)Eventually gets over it somehow.
Hunney Bun, I know I disappointed you today. I was stupid. and you don't need take any responsibility for it, I was just plain stupid and lost control. Just please understand, I just really wanted to be with you today. Bkos of everything that happened, a voice inside kept telling me, "Look at him, he doesn't want to be with you. Just look at him have a great time with them, when with yu he's never that happy." That voice inside tricked me. That voice was my stupid doubt. I'm sorry Hun<+3 I'm really sorry. I Love You, and I really want to be with you.
Things I really Wanna Do; -Spend a romantic Day with Henry. Emphasis, on the day ;D haha! -Watch A Christmas Carol in theaters! I Love A Christmas Carol, SOOO MUCH! -Go Winter Clothes Shopping With Best Friend. =) I Miss You Sheri and Annie! Haven't seen you in millions of years! -GET RID OF THAT STALKER. EFF. -Explore somewhere new. -Fix "something" of myself. -Have A Merry Merry Christmas =) -Spend the Holidays with the best friends. YESSSS Diana, That INCLUDES You! =) <+3 -Ignight the flame to the UNTH power.
So Today, Went to Diana's ;D She's so cute! I was pedofiling her, she liked it! I did her hair =) She washed it off after I left D: Party pooper! We talked about things, listened to music, laughed at random stuff, I'm so comfortable at her house, its like we're really related!
Yesterday was Vj's party. I wish I could've swam, I really did. My Stomach hurt a lot though, and the smell of the water and kids like consumed me. It was a fun day though =) I wish VJAY THE VERY VERY BEST! <+3
Friday was Day with Henry, his mommy bought me a cute tshirt =) I shall wear it tomarrow! I really wna spend a Holiday with you hun, but I somehow doubt it'll happen )= BUT I STILL LOVE YOU<+3 I can settle with you having a good holiday time with family. I'll try to. I Promise. =)
I have SOOOOOO many things I want to do for winter! OMG. FASHION YEARNING APPROACHINGGGGG! I. WANT. TO. GO. SHOPPING!!!! EEEEEE! *SQUEEEEEEEL!*
I WANT NEW WINTRY CLOTHESSSSSS EEEE! :D I just LOVEEE WINTER!
I effing LOVEEEEE you. =) You like the Beatles I'm hoping? ;D
I'd like to start off this blog wishing My Sweet VanessaJoie a Happy Sweet 16th Birthday. =) I had such a cute present for you )= Actually, I don't know if you would've like it that much o_o But since my DAD THREW IT AWAY D:{ ! I'll just tell you what it is. *Ahem* ... An empty milk gallon! :D that expired on your birthday! LOL.
I don't know, I always find those kind of presents entertaining. I had been drinking that milk daily, for the past week, hoping to finish it on time for your birthday. There was barely any left yesterday, and then I check today, and my dad threw it away. )= I'm so sorry babe. I'm currently trying to find something I can spruce up before tomarrow, bkos I don't want to just give you something not with the heart =) I know our friendship has been long-distance lately, but like my romance book says, "Both parties have to try, to keep a happy relationship going." =) I'm wondering if I should give you the brand new box of ______ that I have. I mean, I don't even know if you'd really like, use it. xD I wna get you something special. Since you weren't able to make it to my sweet 16 party )= Your missed out fun must be made up =)
You'll find out what I end up finding tomarrow ;D Actually, I think I already have an idea! Tehehe.
Best Wishes on Your 16th birthday. Te Amo! Tu Novia, Sherry. <+3 -------------------------------------------
I'd also like to Dedicate this blog to some other special people;
Diana, I can not thank you enough for giving me advice, and making me feel better about all the stupid things I do. I Love You. =)
Sheri, I know things have been hard for both me, and you, but I'm so glad that you still choose to confide in me, even though I'm so horrible at texting back. -_- I know it's a lame excuse, but my phone, and my deff-osity, is to blame.
Annie, I haven't seen you in SO long. But you still reach out, and you still try to keep us close, I love You For that<+3 =)
And, LOL. Chris. Believe it or not, You saying "Good Morning!" Every morning at 6Am, really brightens up the day ;)
To Henry, I hate us having these little problems, I mean, sure it hurt me, but I'm sure I hurt you too. And it's frustrating for me, but what I haven't realized is how frustrating it must be for you too. Having all these expectations I keep hoping you'd fufill. I keep hoping that you'll know how to make me happy. But I should've figured, being the person that you are, that you wouldn't want to try doing anything that I'd hope you'd do, bkos you wouldn't want to disappoint me. <+3 Haha, silly boy.
Sooo, Here are some tips, that will hopefully help bring us to better days! :D I'm hoping these don't sound too demanding? )= I Love You. "Both Parties must contribute to make the relationship enjoyable."
I'll contriute this lame list, :D as well as, once again, attempting to not let the little things get to me. Have better comprehension of "little things," and ect. xD I Love You Hunney. =) Hopefully you won't dislike any of these suggestions xD.
When I Still Want to talk to you, But You Have to go.
I'd find it unbelievable sweet, if you'd sneak on the phone later on to finish where we left off.
---->I'd find it even sweeter, if the first words you said were, "I Love You Hunney, I Miss You." Even if you called while I was sleeping.
If it goes to Voicemail, "I Love You Hunney, I Miss You. Good Night and Sweet Dreams <+3." If I pick up, half asleep, "I Love You Hunney, I Miss You. I just wanted to let you know that. <+3"
I'm 100% Sure, that I'll be really happy to hear that. Even if, my stupid self won't want to admit it to you =) I'll try to, I'll be more honest with myself.
==> I know that when you call and I'm asleep, and you wake me up. You worry, you freak out. Ect. I know when you sneak back on the phone, I won't sound too happy at first. When you have to leave like that, it gets me all, "Darn........" I'll feel incomplete, and frustrated. And at the times when you do call back, it'll make me SO happy. But then, your first sentence will always be something like, "I have to go soon though. I snuck on the phone, and I'm hiding -----" It just makes me, :D --- )= --- -____-.
O.O I was gna add more, but I'm tired, and still wna finish Vjae's present =) Tehe. I'll add more later. I don't even know if you'll realize this is here! ;D Byeee Hunnn. =)
God. I Love you. You completely made my day =) Its funny how down I can be, and just one little thing like that can change my whole perspective. I'm hoping that means it was JUST THAT GREAT, and not that I'm really just that pathetic. o.o..
Thank you for that, really. I really miss having PE with you, ANY CLASS IN GENERAL. I wish we could hang out more often. ( Sound like a couple, or what? ;) )
JUST TO LET YOU KNOW;
I recently just realized, that me and Henry are like you and Max last year! LOL. Like, Remember how you guys would sit down with each other in the lockers? GUESS WHAT ME AND HENRY ARE DOING! :D.. Well, yeah, JUST SO YU KNOW WHERE TO FIND US.
Afterschool, I was thinking about HC. Diana isn't going anymore, AND DIANA, IT IS FINE. DON'T FEEL BAD, ITS 100% OKAY! LOL. Really! I forgot the damn permission paper. -_- Shtfkcs.
Henry's not going either, and Smiley might not be. I don't know, she refuses to ask =T. Sure, I know a lot of other ppl going, that I'm really looking foreward to seeing! But, yunnoe when like, they all share this divine closeness with another person? Whether its a bf/gf, Best friend, .. Family member! haha. They have that, and they're bringing it to the dance. So like, I'm not sure, what I'm going to do. Who will I be around most of the time? I always hate feeling unimportant, or like a nuisance.
I'm nervous about HC. But I know I'm going, I want to try it out. Can't let my fear take over and shun myself from the world. This could be my last year.
Note TO Self; I was the first first to ride in the front passenger seat while Sheri was driving! =) My best friend drove me home ;D From her place ;D Late at night ;DDDD <+3
So, the housing lady, or who ever she was, called and left a message. The message once again said that the eviction process has begun, and she was going to help us get relocated to a new place. If we do not cooperate, the sheriff will evict us forcefully from our home.
Another reminder, that I'm really moving. Joy. Looks like I won't be in this house, that I've learned to call home, for longer than a few months. My dad, seemed very happy about it, and this happens after he breaks my door. I wonder what he's up to.. Well guys. Looks like this is very likely to be, the last year at James Lick High School for me. What gets to me the most is, even though this is quite possible, it seems like no one really cares. I mean, Henry was sad about it, yet he is still saying how he's going to his cousins birthday on saturday, the day of thh homecoming. And what about other ppl? They probably won't come either. Imean, I know its wrong to want the world to stop for me and all, but it'd be nice if the people I cared about the most would stop. I don't need the whole world.
It really bothers me how Henry just has to leave me for his cousins. Doesn't even seem like he minds, he looks foreward to it, wants to leave earlier than planned. A thought will not race in his mind to visit me in that free time. In the free time he has until he goes with his cousins, he uses it yearning to leave already. Thats just how it seems for me. I don't know if this is true. I'm speaking out of hurt right now, not out of fury.
Henry says, possibly, he can go to homecoming, but he'll leave early. ..Great. So I don't get FULL Henry on the day I've been looking forward to, for who knows how long. Instead, I get left over Henry, while he saves the rest of his energy for the party with his cousins.
Why do I have a feeling, that even when he does go to the homecoming, he'll probably be dancing with his friends. and not me, and then he will leave before even the first slow dance?
No use dressing up nice for an imaginary date.
I'm so sad, about these things that keep coming up. All these reasons why I can't be with Henry on days I'd expect to be the most happiest on. The days I think we'll actually be a happy couple.
I know it's not his fault and all. But it seems like he just goes with the flow, like he doesn't care.
You Said It Wasn't Gonna Be Like It Was Before Then It Happened Again Pushing Me Back Out The Door Thought It Would Be Forreal This Time Love Made Me Forget About The Signs Is This How You Wanted It To Be Everything You Had To Say Sent The Tears Right Down My Face Now I'm Trying To Escape The Misery Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around Then, Baby, Forget About Me..
Dear Diana, "they have became an important part in my life, or they are the ones i can call up and ask to go chill and they're down.
Vanessa & Sherry (: <3 ." WHY IS VANESSA BEFORE ME HUH?! D: *Throws dirty gym sock* I'm just kidding =) I Love You, even THOUGH, it did hurt 0.5%! I've finally been able to catch up on your blogs, and I hope things are doing so much better for you and Calvin. I'm here for you whenever <+3 Call me any time.
So Today, I went to Sheri's house. It was real nice to spend some quality time with Sheri =) We totally wasted our whole day watching "Trapped in the Closet" LOL. It was quite entertaining, I loved how she said, "This is so *insert Sheri Adj, which I cnt remember here* "wack"? " and then she proceeded to click the next chapter. LOL. It was quite fun =)
My mom nearly got lost following google directions to her new house. It seems every has been having rough times lately.
This morning was really bad for me too. I was continuoudly annoyed and unhappy with things that were happening, which i won't bore you with details about. I do recall, me like, nearly blowing up on Henry. and After some conversation, and calming down, I remember what he said. "Well, when people get mad. They get over it later on. So its best for me just to let it happen. And not do anything rash in the time being." I really need to start doing that. Although Hun, you are still a fat hippo =) Just letting you know.
It was really great spending some time with you again Sheri =) But, IM STILL GLAD I DIDN'T WATCH THE EXORCIST. THE FREAKING PICTURE YU SHOWED ME SCARED ME ENOUGH AS IS D:
Play with me again some time =) You beach sexed-hair person! <+3
