Stress.

I am so stressed out about paying for college. All this bill handling, signing up for things, how do I even pay? I don't understand the scholarship and financial thing at ALL. And the deadline is coming up. I have no idea to know how to use the money I have received! It says "paid" but paid where? It's no in my bank account, so where is?? I don't want all my hard work to be cancelled out from some reconcile to pay!

I wish they could just sit down with me, and walk me through the process so I can do it on my own next year.

But no. No one has helped me. It's been a lot of e-mailing, over and over, vague answers, a lot of "I don't know"s and going crazy.

It's just SO stressful. Seeing these things no one warned me about, even though I check my e-mail EVERYDAY somehow these random, "You have not ----, if you do not ---- in time, your money will not be paid to you!" I mean, what IS this??? 5 days before I "pay" my last bill? When I asked WEEKS ago, "What is the process of this?" E-MAILING IS NOT ENOUGH DETAIL AND HELP ANYMORE. APPARENTLY I DON'T GET IT...

AG, So frustrating. I just want someone to SIT DOWN WITH ME AND EXPLAIN IT WHILE GOING OVER IT WITH ME.

I'm being pushed into the adult bill paying world. I can't mess this up.

Splendid.