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I wrote a blog, and then I put it on private.
pwahhahhaa. In your face (;

My heart is pounding.

Took me a few minutes to click, "New Post." I called, and hung up, haha, sorry about that.

Since, my heart seems to be going 200 mph, and I think I'd be speechless if I heard your voice, (Woah, I've NEVER felt like this. Ever.) I think it'd be smarter if I just wrote to you here.

Henry,
I've realized now, what a bad thing I did. You were a huge part of my life, nearly 2 years of it. You deserve a much better ending than what I did.

I had no right to yell at you like that, you are such a great person, and you mean so much to me. I wish that I could just repeat that day, and could've said everything calmly, like how I wanted to.

That day, I realized the meaning of "breaking up," We've broken up. And we just can't act the way I'd been acting. I don't think I truly anticipated that I'd have to get over you. I was being irresponsible. That day it hit me, that your true intent was to get over me. And before, I guess my hope convinced me that somewhere along the line, we'd just be together again.

This isn't a post saying "I got over you." Because I'm sure you know I haven't.
I just wanted to tell you, that I really don't want you to disappear from my life.
We both need time and space, but please don't make me feel like it's something you want to do. Whether I like it or not, I will be seeing you so many times, and I'm just not ready to watch you walk out the door, all joyous and happy, while I'm left alone in a classroom, picking up my stuff..

Ah, there I go, ranting again.
I'm sorry I yelled at you, I had everything I wanted to say in my head, and now basicly it fluttered away when I thought about you reading this. -________-

"Always say good bye happily, let them know you love them, for you never know when they may be gone."
I Love You Henry.

We deserve a happy ending, so I should've done the mature thing, started leaving you alone, from the very beginning. You needed your space, not someone wanted to take all of it.

I'm sorry Henry, I'm truly sorry.
Maybe in the future, we'll laugh about this.








-----HOLY CRAP THE THUNDER JUST WENT BOOM AND HOLY SHT I AM FREAKED OUT. D:!!!

Last post on blogspot.

What is so wrong with me? What is so horrible about me, that you'd do anything to escape from me?
Why don't you want to spend time with me, like how I want to be with you? )': I want to cry my eyes out.

I'm tired of wanting to be with you.
When you couldn't care less whether or not I was in the room.

You don't want me around, so why so I keep chasing you?


I want to be with you SO much, but it doesn't mean anything, does it?!


That's IT.
From now on, because you want to be able from me SO much. I'll just leave you alone then.
I won't try to make plans with you. I won't expect you to call or stay with me. I wish tomorrows schedule was everyday so I wouldn't burden you with my presence.

I wanted YOU. Not your pity. Don't stay with me because I'd be sad/mad if you didn't. Leave me be sad or mad, leave me to get over it. Bkos I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me.

I kept saving good opportunities to spend time with you, and you kept using those same opportunities to get away from me.

I understand why people go on "deleting" sprees after a break up, so forgive me from erasing you everywhere.

As of now, I'll erase the Henry I knew long ago. Erase him all. You're a new person to be me, and if you want a spot in my heart, you're going to have to make one. I will not, make one for you.

There you have it. I'll leave you alone now. And sure, I'll be around you, in our little group of friends. But I'll make sure that "Sherry" never bothers you again.

No more hugs. No more late night conversation. No more desperate little girl wanting to spend time with you.

Have a good life, and farewell.

Dear You,

I Care About You, feel better soon.

Always your friend. Sherry.

Don't lose yourself to stress.