Sighhh.

Before I say anything, Shoutout to Annie. =)

I LOVEEEE You Annie! haha, come back and play with me! I miss you =)

Another Shoutout to Sheri; Man. I miss you bestie. For reallies )= I'm so sad when we can't see each other during the weekend! I really really miss yu )=

So anyways, Annie came over yesterday. we baked cookies. Had fun. She's an awesome dancer, even though she's all self conscious about it! BUT she still sucks, bkos she ate all the noodles, and wouldn't lend me her rubberband ;D LOL.

Today, was quite. Reality hitting. I finally got a day with Henry. and No one else. it was just us today. And the thing is, I couldn't enjoy it. Why? Bkos I've been hit folks. I Love Henry, I really do. But everytime I would be excited, and tell him a story, he'd be distracted by someone else, and reply to what they say, completely ignoring what I say. When I'm still in the process of saying it. After this, I'm just, not excited about it anymore. I don't feel like telling it. And then, he goes, "Ah! Im sorry its bkos-" .. *sigh. I don't care about why it happened. Just that it happened, hurts, Henry. So, that has happened so many times. Even when ppl aren't around. When i'm walking with Henry, happy we're spending time together, hoping we can laugh like Vj and Max do. I try to talk to him, tell him something I found entertaining. And he nods, looks around, and points and calls to someone else. and Then pulls me to them with him, while I'm still telling the story. Yes, there IS such a thing as multitasking, but its obvious that he's not listening to me, bkos he is laughing and making hand gestures with the other person. The whole time I try talking to him, about anything enjoyable in my day, something like this happens, where he will choose someone else over me, and expect me to just go on with the story like nothing happened.

Today, wasn't like that. Today, there WAS no one around for him to run to. Well, I'm unsure, bkos I was just so, hesistant. Today, I was just quiet. I'm so used to him treating me like that, I didn't even start a conversation. I was nearly quiet today in our time together. I talked, of course. But I've lost that shine of excitement, bkos of past experiences.

Will it ever come back?
This year feels slightly lonely. Maybe it's just a phase.

I'm finally getting Henry, not being surrounded by ppl. yet, we're not happy together, like a couple. *sigh sigh sigh*

Also, his aunt is now living with him. So I can no longer come over to his house on fridays. No quality time at his house.

He's moving next year, but,
Is it just me, or has he already moved a little?