Random Blog.

I'm trynna pick whether to see Henry tomarro, or just chill. Bkos I want to see him, this whold break wasn't even really like a BREAAAK. No school, Still lots of work. [ Mostly English.......*twitchtwitch* ALL ENGLISH..... *TWITCH TWITCH*....] AND NO FREAKING TIME WITH HENRY! D: I mean, Break to me means = Quality time with SHERI AND ANNIE..... AND HENRY. [Alone.] Not with Brothers and him being pulled away for some family thing. I mean, I'm happy he's so involved with his family. Something I wouldn't know anything about, so i shouldn't complain.

But yunnoe, I wish I had him to myself at times. But I should stop being so greedy, I mean, he's not gna have his family forever, well not like THIS. College, he's probly going to miss them SO much. I know it. So I think I should just let him be with his family, possibly try getting closer to his family, but i dnt wna ruin his family time yunnoe!
My Family = Mom. 50%Brother. ANNIE AND HER MOM, Sheri! And Hunney Bunney Henry &35% of his family!
I dnt wna intrude, i mean, they aren't MY family. And until they are ready to be, I should stop taking away their son, who I know they love and are proud of the most.
Henry most likely can't see it, but I know that he's they're favorite, and I can see from their faces, the way that they look at Henry and the way they look at Brandon and Christopher, they're probly regretting not spending time with him when he was younger.

I wna get to know more about the younger Henry, but it's okay. I feel really isolated lately. I mean, I want a family too. I really do. Makes me sad thinking about Families.
Reminds me back in the days of the 5 year old Sherry, who used to cry just watching families eat on T.V. shows.

Sometimes I still feel like crying watching it, but I remind myself to snap out of it, crying won't change anything. It'll just make ppl think, "Wtf.?" "You're so stupid." "Drama Queen." "*walks farther away and ignores it." "Poor thing, lets feel sorry and give her pity." Either way, I've been through alla that, and known of them help. Wuhts the point of crying? Or letting ppl see you cry.

I've been good at it for the past few years, not crying at much. But lately, these two years, getting closer to Annie and Henry constantly reminds me of the family I wish I had, so my wall is breaking. God Damnit.



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