Todaaay;

Well, today's a new day. I talked to sheri about the whole "Annie" thing. I love her, and although she's probably gonna continue talking to Annie, which i wish she wouldn't anymore. I love her with all my heart.

So she told me that when i was down/mad. And she informed Annie about it, the first thing she said was "That's so stupid." Wtf. Yu dont call yer best friend stupid after yu muther effing just ruined her plans and dnt even give a sht about her consent. So afterwards when they were going to jack in the crack, sheri invited me. She didn't. She didn't even seem to care about how i was feeling. it was just "tralala im so happy and having so much fun" So while they were there, she ate a spicy popper thingy, that made her cry. Then she tells sheri to take and picture and send it to me so i'd feel "sorry". Wtf. Why the hell should i be sorry? Damn, stupid. Then LOL, its funny. Sheri told me straight up that I should have a conversation where i should smack, shake and yell the fkc outta her. ROFL. iLY<3


So vball game. Yesh we lost. ROFL. Buht i dnt care i dived and swang and set and everything! I got my ass on the floor and im proud! Maaan, today was pretty cool, i was all "tralala" then i saw Ky walk in. ROFL. I was like "OH HELL NO FKCER. IM STEPPING THIS GAME UP!" then like yeaaa, it was good, then HENRY'S THERE! MAN I GO CRAZY OVER THE BALL NOW. :] I'm glad he came to the game where i saved the ball ;] at the end when everyone was saying "1 good thing someone did" So many ppl said I hustled and served them up! I was sooo happy, like so many ppl said me that coach was all "Okay im rulling out sherry someone say something about another person!" ROFL i was all "DUDEE COACH! RULLING OUT SHERRY?! THATS HATING!" LOL.


Yeah, it was cool. &ILOVEHENRY :D

Fkcing Whorebag.

Annie's a fkcing whorebag. I want to shank her ass. Bitch bitch bitch.


Yesh, im very mad. Very Very Very Very mad. She ruined my plans. Ruined my day. Took my best friend. Ruined my fkcing day. Invites herself into my plans. Comes to my house to hang out with my best friend. Leaves me helluh bored. she's a mother fucking whorebag. Fkcing bitch bitch bitch.



Damn, im so pissed off.

I made plans with her before right? Bkos she says i need to spend time with her. Then the next day she tells me that she's going to the moonfestival with Victor. I dislike the moonfestival, i get very bored. So i tell her its okay. So since everyone was busy i finally found the oppurtunity to hang out with henry for a day! FINALLY. So i'm so happy to get to spend a day with him bkos i've been clearing my schd for my best friends lately, so they wont feel left out. All of a sudden she calls bkc saying that Victor cancels on her and she wants to hang out with me. Wuht the fkc am i? I backup plan? Someone she hangs out with when the rest are busy? So then i tell her i alrdy made plans with Henry, and she gets all mad at me. Next thing yu know sheri is texting me saying that she's going to gmall. I've been trynna get a day with her like all week buht she's always been busy, so annie wants to go and suddenly she's available? So then she says she's coming over, and so's annie. There goes my plans for the day. Annie's plans were to ruin my plans. Fkc her. Fkcing fkc her. She can't just invite herself into my plans and tralala. Not only that buht while they were at my house, she didn't even seem to care to talk to me. You're in my fkcing house fkcing slut. Get a clue. So wuht ever. Im still very pissed and i've been wanting to rant about this all day. The whole day i was talking to henry trynna calm myself down, when i wasn't talking to henry i was being left out in the background while they were having a good time. Today sucked fkcing ass. And im pissed.


Fkcing slut, i wish yu never meant Sheri. yunnoe wuht i wish i never meant yu. Damn. Im so pissed. Wuht the fkc ever.

Fridaaay.

Well, School was pretty cool today. I tried staying in a good mood all day. And not letting little things piss you off and get to you really works! So school was cool. I stalked someone in first period. ROFL. I got his number from my friend and he was sitting next to me, so i txt him saying "You're sexy, I'm outside your window everynight." And like 5 mins later he's staring and it and he goes "WAAH???!?!" ROFL LMFAO. I starting cracking up so he found out it was me.


Bleeeeep boooop. Skipping to brunch, 2nd period was boring. Me and Henry were hugging each other everywhere saying "I HUGGED YU LONGER! I LOVE YOU MORE!" It was fun. <3 I love himmm.

3rd Period; I completely got confused at "The dragon" o.o Lorenz was laughing at me. o_o. HOW THE HELL WAS IT A TRAIN THOUGH?! ROFL. Then David did the Jack in the box Middle finger thingy ma jiggy.

So P.E. I cant really remember it. I accually ran today though. and In football. Eh Nhat Tu's got a new vietnamese buddy. So i guess i'm gonna have to find another PE buddy. I'm deciding between Diego or Lorena. o_O. I'd pick Henry buht he has too many friends that would probly get mad if i took him away from them.

Lunch; Me and vj went to try and change schds and got food and applications for working at lunch. ROFL when we were walking to the counselor someone went in and i was like "How's the door closed? o_o someone was in there o_o" And then Vj cracks open the door and the ppl inside stare at her like "O___O" and she's all "NHAAA SORRY :D" ROFL LMFAO HAHAHAHAH OMG THAT WAS SO FXUPING HILLARIOUS.

So 5th period. We saw V for vendetta. Oh god. The extremality o_o It haunted me. It felt like i was there, and it was so awkward to walk out in the halls after that..

6th. I remembered my little reading thingy!
Truong toi co bong cay cao
Tuong gach Mai ngoi, Hang rao bao quanh
Som chieu toi den hoc hanh
Nho ma, cham hoc lon thanh nguoi hay!

FSHOOOO I remembered it ;] Just not the damn symbols. Hate the damn symbols -_-

Volleyball; It was okay. I did better then two days ago. Way better buht im still pretty off.

So i was pretty tired and stuff after that, and when i saw Henry i was happy :] He's so adorable, and he makes me smile. Then after we bought the cake thing i was down again bkos his mom was making me feel like i didn't know wuht i was doing. And Henry said i looked annoyed, so she probably thinks i was being a real meanie to her.. Then on the drive home Henry's dad was saying how much i sucked at vietnamese. And i don't think he was joking. Eh, i don't think he likes me very much. I feel like a huge disappointment or failure.. i'll try getting better, for henry. Well i think i might like bring Henry's mom flowers today, just bkos i appreciate her being so nice to me. Cept i want to do it when his dad isn't there, i dnt want another reason for him to be mad at me..


Well, today is another day.. God i want to get better so badly. I don't want his parents being disappointed in him bkos i cnt fxuping be better at vietnamese.




aughghgfhgjsnvksl. Bye.

Rantrantrant.

Man, I had so many weird dreams last night. I don't know why, buht they were about Anthony. I wonder is you're able to see me from up there, old friend. God, do you remember those little fights about who's life sucked more on aim? I always loved you for those, bkos you always convinced me that life is better lived, not grieving. I Love You<3 And i miss you, a lot.

I had a dream about Henry, my only normal dream, and the rest, they were all about you. They were little flashbacks, the day i first met you, the day i got to know you, everything. I can't believe how close we used to be, how everytime something went wrong in my life, you'd be the one i'd come to. I remember thinking to myself "No one can ever tell me like you do." It hurts, it hurts to know that your gone. Its like i spent a year in denial, hoping you'd come back. I still sign on aim, and while i'm broswing, your sn just catches my eye. I can't erase it, i try and try, buht i keep hoping you'd just come back.

I'm so sorry how i abandoned you. I feel so angry at myself, why did i do it? I'll never get a chance to have one of m best friends back. I hate them. I hate them i hate them. It wasn't your fault.... its never your fault. YOU DIDN'T DESERVE TO_!!!!!!!!!! WHY DID THEY-!!!! ........you didn't deserve to.....Anthony, i miss you so much.. You were like a brother to me, always and forever my brother<3.


Today at school, i tried to remain happy, to ignore everything, slowly and slowly every few secs i kept thinking about you, remembering you. I tried to keep myself busy, nothing. I fkcing hate this. I think im still in the stage of denial.. I picked little things to get mad at, trying to keep my head from thinking about you, and the day you were taken away. IVSJKCMKS....... fuckers. i want to......... i want to wringe their necks.

I got mad at everything today, having too much hw, too heavy books, wasting paper, i even got mad at henry, for not coming to talk to me about wuht was wrong. Im so stupid, i wanted him to notice how i was feeling, buht its not like i would've told him wuht was wrong anyways. Today, another thing happened, he got mad at me. Something that took me by surprise. I could tell he was mad. So bkos he was mad, i got to the "so angry im going to cry" phase. I left and threw my books around, when i got home, it took me only like a min to break down.

I'm sorry i brought you into this, in a way i hope that their lying about "heaven" i'm hoping you really do forget everyone you knew in your life. Bkos Anthony, i don't want you to see me like this. I wonder, if you did remember, do you still think about your little dorky bestie?

R.I.P. Old Friend.<3

Recaaap.

Maaan, these days have been up and down lately, i got home from the vball game at like 10. LOL. We went to eat tacos and then drove like an hour up to the game. Then when we were going home we stopped in gilroy to eat and in and out. HAHA. Maaan, fatasses.

Well i just showered and its 11:37pm. Finally finished homework, gotta study for tomarro, buht man TGIF. Thank god its friday tomarro! Man. I cnt wait for the weekend. School's starting to get better though, buht these days have just be up and down. God, im so glad me &Henry are still like great :] at least in my opinion we are? I Cant keep my hands off him! Buht i think he needs to spend more time with his friends, i dnt wanna take him away from them yunnoe? ]: He has sooo many friends too, seriously. -_-


Haha, i love him, and i can share him.... i can try... LOL. Oh, and I HAVE TWO FREAKING BUTT BRUISES!!!!! THEY HURT TO SIT ON!!!!!.


I Love yu :D

RAWR

Man, I am so disappointed/sad. How can it be possible to have just one person you want to see the whole day, and look foreward to every chance yu may get no matter HOW MANY DAMN TIMES YU GET IT TAKEN AWAY. I wanted to see you all day, i dreamed about yu, i thought about you, i love you, why is it the day i really felt like i just needed to be with yu is the day yu weren't around at all?


Wuht the fkc ever. Man. I'm gonna go do homework.

Today;

Well i decided to put this on my blog because it makes me feel better everytime i think about it.

Well, my mom has been telling me all this bs about how I'm not a failure at life, who's going to go nowhere and all this crap. After like 2 days of feeling miserable i realized all this time that they're the ones that's been putting me down all my life. Henry's the one that's broughten me back up.

I don't really give a sht anymore if disappoint them or not bkos they have been disappointing me all my life. Whether its forgetting to pick me up, giving the food to my brother while i starve, taking away my freaking bed leaving me with the fkcing sofa and no damn blanket to sleep on. I don't give a crap anymore. I know excatly where i'm heading in life. I'm not some dumbass who's going to ruin their life over a guy. Henry is Henry. He's saved me from any kinda trouble i was heading towards bkos of YOU, my parents. And if yu just won't accept that fact, then i do not need your support. I didn't need it when i was 2, i didn't need it when i was 7, and i guess you've just let me down again, i don't need it now.

One day i'm going to come back to them, I'll have Henry, i'll be successfull, and all i'm going to do is look them in the eyes and tell them, "I told you, told you a long time ago."

Henry, I love you<3





Volleyball;

Was the fuzz. We owned ;] JV Rocked AND i played with Varsity! I'm not also the setter and the captain for the JV team! Man! I'm excited! haha



And also dead tired from the hour car trip, no food buht a hotdog [ A DAMN GOOD HOTDOG ] And 4 sets for 2 games all day!

PEACEEE!

Volleyball Today.

Maaan. I didn't think they'd let me go. Buht they did. It was such a heart attack, i got ready and everything and i was just about to leave, when halfway down the stairs my dad comes through the door and i like scramble up again. ROFL. man fkcing scary ass.. So I stayed there for like 5 mins and he started coming up the stairs and i ran in the bathroom. Then when he went in his room i ran downstairs and was about to leave when he asks, "WHERE'S SHERRY?!?!!?" &I'm like "O_O.. Hereeee.." and he's like "AND WHERE ARE YU GOING?!" And I'm like "Volleyball........?" and he's like "WHO'S DRIVING?!" And i'm like "Do you want to?" And he's like "No my back hurts, walk carefully." ROFL. FKCING GOD. MADE ME ALMOST LIKE DIE. I WAS SO SCARED. DAMN.


So Anyways, Volleyball was cool, i think i might choose to stay with JV, coach STILL says he may just bump me up anyways buht he's not sure yet bkos i think he knows i want to stay in JV. Its not that i don't like varsity. It's just so hard for me to feel at home there yunnoe? With JV, Although its either i never get to touch the ball or i get the ball too much -_- *twitch* its fun, it really is! And i like this year's coach, i really feel like we're learning more with her. Although i think we need to do a lot of scrimaging.

So After volleyball, my sunshine appeared. :] I got to see him, finally! Its only been a day without him, buht it just feels like its been so long bkos of everything's thats happend. Well basicly i dunno when my parents will trust me, or even give him a chance. They honestly have nothing to worry about, im not stupid. He's not just some random guy i met. He's special, and i dnt give a =x if this kinda thing happens all the time, he's real. He's Henry. And I Love Him<3 I know if they just gave him a chance, they would too.

So Now I was listening to whole bunch of music, trynna watch friends buht the websites wont work. And Folding clothes thinking about Henry. Now i'm about to take a shower :D

My Uncle Just Came in, The cool one :D God, I love him. He's like "Heeeey pretty laydaaaay! So have you eaten yet? Wuht're yu doing? Oh wuht do yu WANT to eat? I'll get it for yu ;] Are you home by yourself?" All these questions that NO ONE IN THE WHOLE FREAKING FAMILY BUHT HIM ASKS ME. And then i said "No my dad's home" He's like "WAHT?! WHERE?! I KICK HIM BUTT. I DO IT!" ROFL. Fob-voice. He's so awesome. THey need to have an uncle's day. I don't see him my dad and him related. :]

I'm gonna take a quick bubble bath, my head hurts, listen to music the whole time and then call Henry ;] My Love<3 Today's not such a bad day. Maybe things will slowly begin to get better.


Continuation;

Man, my cool uncle is still here. He's so freaking Nice! Gosssh! I loveeee him!

So I just came out of thee BEST bubble bath, EVER! It was like the smell of irresistible apple everywhere, great smelling shampoo, spa warm water. Soothing music from my laptop. I just like litterally fell asleep in there, and i had a dream too, about Henry. :] We went to the prom together! Goddd, that was a good dream, maybe i'll have it again ;]

So after i come out of thee best bath ever, i walk into my room and there's a cup of ice cold water for me annnd food! It was like just made of something! From who you're wondering? My awesome uncle ;]

Well, i'm watching "Its a boy girl thing" right now on crunchyroll.com. LOL. I miss Henry like crazaaaay right now. I'm pretty much on lockdown, at least for like a week or so, buht that doesn't mean im not gonna be able to see Henry, fsho i will. Bkos i can not live without him, I miss him. I wanna see my parents faces, senior year, senior prom, when i open the door for my "date" and my parents see that its Henry. Haaa Haaaa. I'd be like "Told you Years Ago Mom, Told you years ago." and we'd close the door and drive off :]


I called him buht he didn't pick up D: I missssh him! Hope he calls!