Trust me, if you really cared, you would have done something by now. Just because I didn’t say something that you may have been hoping for doesn’t mean I don’t care; it just means that I’ve tried for a while now and at some point, I woke up from it all and realized that it just wasn’t worth it anymore. What do you expect from me? I refuse to be that person I was five years ago—almost desperate. Friendship is a give and take relationship and I think it’s time for you to give me a phone call to see if I’m down to chill and for you to take me somewhere for a change. But as for now, I’m tired—in many respects actually. Time to rest these mind strangling thoughts. Sorry. I have to put this here. I have to leave it here so I can read it tomorrow and make sure what I'm feeling is real and not overreacting.. Because as of right now, while at my boyfriend's friend's random house, I am sitting here, my face completely red, head completely spinning and lightheaded, and I am just so hurt and shocked. Or maybe I just have a fever, I'm often feverish and sick. Maybe when I have more time and don't have random people staring at me and asking me if I'm okay, I can elaborate more on this issue that has grown out of proportion. I just really really disapprove of this assuming tone. Trust ME, you don't understand at all how much I cared. Not everyone is the same person. While some have the capacity to keep trying and trying until forcing their way in to make it work, others see exactly what is happening in front of them and let it go after a decent amount of effort. I can say this is the same case for you. You say it's give-and-take, and now it's my turn. Please elaborate on how you have tried so very hard because trust me it makes my blood boil like a slap to the face.